A Little Bit of Everything (and why won’t my “f” key work without me having to mash it??)

Updates!

So Cody and I celebrated 7 years of knowing each other/dating on April 1st.  It was a good day – but I ended up with my period.  Good and bad, in a way.  Good because it meant we could move forward with trying to make a(nother) baby.  Not good cause, well, it was our anniversary.  And I had my period.

We headed off to the clinic on CD3.  Instead of jumping into another IUI attempt, we opted to give’r a go the old fashioned way: Femara, Ovidrel, timed intercourse.  I’m on CD10 now, have 3 follicles (one dominant) and will be triggering either Monday or Tuesday.

Toby went back for his second (and last!) set of shots.  He took ’em like a champ!  He’s growing so fast (he gained 2 pounds in 3 weeks!).  His personality is growing too – he’s a little snuggle bug.  Unfortunately for us, he decides he needs to snuggle at 2AM.  Preparation for a baby, as was hinted to me by my fav nurse, Ella, today.

I found myself back in the Urgent Care Center today.  My light-headedness has returned (not the same thing as the super intense vertigo I had initially experienced).  My sinuses are angry.  My ear hurts and has a ringing in it.  And still, there’s no real answer from these people.  I just want to be issued some antibiotics so I can see if that will help anything.  But the clinic has some weird policy about not giving antibiotics or something.  So instead, I’m told to do the Epley manoeuvre (which worked – until a few days ago), try the Serc meds again, test my blood sugar, and have blood work completed.  No… nothing I haven’t already done.  In another opinion, my boss (who is a Pharmacist and studying Chinese medicine/acupuncture) seems to think I’m blood deficient.  Having a full blood work panel would show if this is accurate or not.  I also finally got a prescription for the “Golden Star” of prenatal vitamins and will be starting them soon.  If I am deficient in anything, I assume these vitamins would help me feel better?

I guess that’s it for now.  I’m super tired from being kept awake from my “cat-baby” and then having to get up at 4:45AM to go to the clinic.  Hope all of this makes some sort of sense!

 

with a dizzy smile,

 

beanie

 

I LIED!  Have you all heard that the Backstreet Boys and Spice Girls are in talks of doing a tour together?!  Please please please please please make this happen, Concert-Powers-That-Be!

Woe Is NOT Me

Ok, so I’m ready to remove my head from my ass.

I’m sorry, guys!  I was whiny, weepy, and woeful.  Cody was doing a good job of being there for me, but I was still being a baby about everything and brought it here.  Not getting my period isn’t helping my case either.  I’m so sorry if I annoyed you with all my bitching.  I’ll try to keep it to a minimum from now on.  

Who am I kidding?  All I do is bitch on this blog sometimes. 

Anyway, I am feeling much better!  The vertigo that caused me to go to the Urgent Care Clinic is gone.  Thank you, Epley Manoeuvre!  And the medication “Serc”, I guess.  There is still some pressure/pain in my ear with a weird noise attached to it, but all in all, I’d say I’m on the mend.  I’ve even figured out that caffeine aggravates the symptoms I do still have, so I’m working on cutting it out of my system completely.  Apparently a diet too high in sodium will also enhance symptoms, so no more poutine, KFC, Chinese food, or chips.  You can’t see it, but I’m actually frowning about that.  I try not to have those things often, but they are things I do enjoy.  Especially poutine!  What’s a Canadian girl supposed to do without poutine?

I’m not going to lie – the thought of (another) lifelong illness sucks.  I have been dealing with ears/nose/throat/sinus issues for as long as I can remember, so it’s not that.  It’s the idea that I could end up with permanent hearing loss.  It’s also that it’s another thing I might potentially pass on to my future babies.  That does not make me feel good!

I have managed to reason with myself (with Cody’s help) and have concluded I don’t likely have MS.  Of course, it’s possible.  But I’m not going to sit here and worry myself sick about it.  In reality, I don’t have many symptoms that would indicate I could have MS, especially  since it’s all been ear related (NOT an MS symptom) and the medication and physical therapy exercises I’ve done have alleviated my problems.  I will have to have tests on my ear in the future and also some tests to rule out other possible causes of the dizziness – but until I have those done, what can I do?  

Live life.  THAT’s what I can (and will) do!

There was a cherry on top of the shit (being passed off as ice cream) I was served last week.  I received a letter in the mail from the hospital in my town.  They would like to know more about my “visit” to the emergency room on December 30th, 2013 (my miscarriage date).  Well, Mr. Letter Sender, my “stay” was terrible.  Maybe you should read my chart first, figure out WHY I was there, and then decide if I’d like to rehash the dirty details with some stranger who doesn’t care and then give you some suggestions or comments about your facility and staff. 

*insert 774 eye rolls here*

That’s about it for me!  Hope life is gum drops and candy canes for you all!

 

beanie

 

PS – Am I the only one who thinks a cat carrying a toy in his mouth is adorable?  Also, speaking of cats, go to YouTube and search “Cats vs Balloons”.  HILARIOUS.

 

Oh, Lord.  I need to have a baby.  I’m becoming a cat lady.

Another Diagnosis

Honestly, if I never see another Walk In Clinic/Urgent Care Clinic/Emergency Room, I’ll die a happy woman.  I am so grateful we have these facilities available.  And in Canada, I’m lucky that I can walk into any of these places and been seen by a doctor for free.  I just wish I didn’t have to go to these places!

In 2008, it was confirmed I was diabetic.  For the next few years, things were mellow while I tried to maintain this disease.  In 2012, I got this wicked sinus infection that lasted over a month, but other than that, things were ok.  2013 is when things started to go to shit.  I was diagnosed with PCOS at the beginning of the year.  Months and months of treatment after treatment landed me pregnant almost a year later.  Then I miscarried in December.  Since December I’ve been sick.  A cold, puke-fest 2014, bronchitis with an ear thing, and now this lovely dizziness.  So I guess 2014 is where things start to go to shit. 

I went to the doctor last night.  Waited about an hour and then had a very thorough exam.  I was told I’ve got vertigo which could possibly be the cause of Meniere’s disease, which is an issue in my inner ear.  Oh but wait!  This doesn’t go away… symptoms can be lessened, but you’re likely to continue having episodes, and some of the symptoms could be intensified, up to – and including – hearing loss.  Awesome… another life-long illness.  I’m taking a medication that will help with the vertigo, I’m hoping it starts to work soon!

And now I’m crying.  I’m so freaked out and it’s really for no reason.  I’m doing the stupid Google thing I always do and it brought me back to MS.  I know the likelihood of me having MS is so super small, but there’s always a possibility for anything!  And you know how it goes:  you read the symptoms of anything and you can pull out a few that you have.  I mean – BEANIE!  The doctor did tests and specifically said that she was eliminating a brain-related issue.  She SAID there were likely particles in the inner ear and sometimes that just happens.

I’m overwhelmed and sad today, friends.

 

beanie

Ms. (NON) Brightside

Ok, so about that dizziness…  I’m used to getting a little light headed when standing up sometimes.  I always thought it was related to blood pressure or something.  I always hoped it was related to pregnancy.  Anyway, this dizziness is more than that.  I cannot lay down or sit up without being “overtaken” by the spell.  I literally feel like the room is spinning and I go completely off balance.  If I’m in bed, I lay down.  When I’m not having a “spell”, my head feels heavy and swimmy, and I’m tired.

Now, like I said, I’m sure this is an inner ear issue.  However, after freaking myself out, I googled my symptoms and it turns out it could also be MS, a tumour, or a stroke.

I’m a hypochondriac.  I don’t know how to NOT jump to the worst (and most unlikely) scenario.  That being said, I’m going to an urgent care centre tonight.

 

beanie