When Will I Learn

I just wrote this long post about all of the plans I’d made regarding pregnancy.  Sure enough, I close the tab by accident, which searching for a link, and OF COURSE WordPress didn’t save it as a draft!  WHY, WORDPRESS???  WHY!!??

Ok, so I am going to make an attempt to duplicate that post.

When I got pregnant…. heck, before I got pregnant, dealt with infertility, got pregnant and miscarried three times, and then got pregnant with my two princesses, I had BIG PLANS.  Some fell through, some were altered, some have been completed.

Originally, I wanted a penguin-themed baby nursery.  This was mainly because babies see black, white, and red the best in the beginning, but I mean – penguins are adorable.  We couldn’t find nice penguin decals, so we opted for lambs… why?  Well, one is the whole “counting sheep/cow jumping over the moon” thing.  My delusion is that they babies will sleep if they can count sheep?  The second reason is that 2015 is the year of the sheep.  The room is a very nice green, coupled with some offensively pink curtains and a metallic purple changing table.  It sounds horrid, but it goes together so well!  As you may or may not know, up until recently, it was as if every person in my life was telling me that the nursery should look like this, or that.  Since then, people have come to realize that these babies are OURS, this house is OURS, so we get to decorate how we want to.  We are putting one crib in our room for the first while, and both babies will be sleeping there together.  I don’t PLAN on having them sleep in our bed, but I am aware that there will come a time when that is the only way to soothe them.  I just really will work my hardest to not have it become a habit for them.

I always wanted to cloth diaper my babies.  However, this is for 100% selfish reasons:  I want them to potty train sooner.  I don’t know enough about the environment issues (I mean, yes, diapers are not in landfills, but at the same time, you’re doing more laundry, so you’re using more water and electricity…. might just end up being even…)  The cost to cloth diaper twins is ridiculous!  I mean, “poop rags” (as my husband so lovingly refers to them) are expensive either way, but cloth would save us nothing, in fact, it would be a huge investment up front.  While at a baby show, we found a diaper service that was actually affordable!  For less than $35/week, we get unlimited cloth diapers delivered to us AND we don’t have to wash them.  We also found a bunch of diaper covers that were about $7/ea, which was a nice savings as well.

I knew that there were going to be voluntary and involuntary lifestyle changes that needed to happen.  One of those was revolving around food.  I love to eat.  I eat McDonalds, I eat from food trucks, I eat at sit-down restaurants.  I LOVE FOOD. I especially love food that I don’t have to make myself.  My husband, bless his heart, tries to be helpful.  However, sometimes it would just be easier to cook the meals myself than to deal with mess he makes after cooking something complex like hamburger helper.  I am fully aware that I am not going to have the luxury to just go out and eat at a restaurant with Cody whenever I want.  We simply will not have the time or disposable income.  I am also fully aware that I will not have the time to cook an elaborate meal every day.  What I’ve done, instead, is to create meals that can be thawed, reheated, and eaten.  I have 6 in the freezer so far (pasta sauces, stuffed pasta shells, and meatballs).  I plan to add more by just making extra of what I’m cooking (when applicable – like cabbage rolls, or lasagna) and freezing the leftovers.  I am also in the process of finishing up about 12 different frozen crock pot meals, which involved a lot of research (did you know you can’t just freeze potatoes?), time, and effort.  I literally just chopped over a pound of carrots for this project.  In the end, you have a ziplock full of veggies, meat and sauce and when you want to eat it, you just pull it out of the freezer, into the slow cooker for 7 hours, and voila!  Homemade food.

In our parenting class, we learned about baby wearing.  I originally didn’t think I was going to do much of this since there are two babies to “wear”, but I changed my mind.  After seeing one of the dads put on a Moby wrap, I decided that I wanted to give it a shot.  These things are EXPENSIVE.  I’m coming across pretty “frugal” here, but honestly – I refuse to pay $80/ea for fabric.  And we need two!  I looked at Kijiji, but there was only one for sale and a couple of other types I’d never heard of.  So, off to Youtube!  I found a tutorial/instructions on how to make my own wrap.  We cut the fabric and tried it out with Toby last night:  success!  Two wraps for $40.  Not bad.

I thought I wanted maternity photos, but after a hellish time with our engagement/wedding photographer, I wasn’t sure I’d ever hire a professional photographer again!  (In a nutshell, the photographer showed up late, wore running shoes, left early, and lost half of our photos.  We do not have a single professional shot of the most important moments of our wedding!)  I ended up having boudoir photos done last year (so fun!), and my opinion changed.  I might never be pregnant again.  Why wouldn’t Cody and I document this time??  Unfortunately, the package prices for these photos can be SO HIGH (averaging in my area about $300 – $400).  In an effort to remain married, I decided to find a way to lower the cost, but still get the photos done.  Off to Kijiji!  I found a lovely woman looking to expand her portfolio and let me tell you – BEST DECISION EVER.  She’s done amazing work and I only paid $25.  Unbelievable.  She and I clicked right away and I’m so happy we took a chance with her!  There’s more to it than saving money, though.  This woman wants to be able to be a photographer full time, unfortunately, she doesn’t have a lot of experience.  When I asked her about newborn photos, she told me that a lot of people decide to go elsewhere after they find out she hasn’t done these types of photos yet.  As many of us know, I am sure, how frustrating is it when you want a job, but that job requires experience, however, you cant get experience because no one will hire you without it?  I am totally hiring Alexis for the newborn shots and I hope she is able to expand her business and portfolio.  Here are a couple of her shots from our session:

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Speaking of newborn photos, I came across an interesting article today.  To summarize, this woman had “newborn” shots taken of her adopted 13 year old son.  If you have a chance, please check THIS ARTICLE out!

Oh, and after I read that article, and I read another.  It’s completely different, but I’d totally sing along with THIS GUY during rush hour.

This post is really about nothing, I realize that.  I guess I’ll finish it off with a semi-update on the fruit basket.

I ended up in L&D on Monday due to cramps and back ache.  I really think I’m just getting paranoid because the end is so close!  Turns out I am fine and so are Apple and Banana (got a lot of comments on how “happy” they were on the monitors).  I am not dilated, however I’m 50% effaced, so there is some progress!  I was sent home and told that I’m not allowed to have sex for the rest of the week.  The next day, I saw Dr. B and he, once again, said how happy he is with the progress.  Both babes are 5 pounds now (growing a little more slowly, but they also have no room anymore), still in the right position, meaning induction at 37 weeks (uhhhh that’s 3 weeks from now!) and the likelihood of a vaginal delivery.

I’m feeling ok – had a mild panic attack thinking I lost my mucous plug yesterday, but I don’t think I did.  I’m tired and not sleeping well, but I’m happy and nervous and excited and scared.  And large. I forgot that I’m also ridiculously large.  But happy 😉

That’s it for me!  I hope you’re all happy and healthy ❤



13 thoughts on “When Will I Learn

  1. You’ll know if you catch the loss of your mucous plug! It’s like your vag had a wicked cold and hocked out a lugie. A big, jello-y lugie. Lol
    I’m so glad you found a photographer you love!!!

  2. Your pictures are beautiful! We paid $200 for ours and I can’t even tell you how much we’re paying for newborns. It’s fairly obscene. Like, I had to pay half up front obscene. I’m not saying photographers don’t deserve to get paid, and I know they spend a ton of time at the computer doing edits, but the prices can be bonkers.

    Also, I’m a little surprised at how much you were finding mobys for-I’m getting mine off amazon for $45!

    1. Thanks so much! She did such a good job on these photos. I know she’s going to do awesome with the newborn shots too. I feel a little bad for getting such a great deal, but at the same time, it’s sort of win-win.

      I honestly didn’t even look at amazon. But, making them was wicked easy. I just bought fabric and cut it in half lol. And it’s a cool pattern! 😉

      How are you feeling, lovey?

      1. Do NOT feel bad about getting a deal-you deserve it!

        I’ve been a little up and down today actually. I think I’m having some prenatal anxiety maybe? Plus I was afraid I was going into labor earlier, which I obviously want, but then when it seemed like it might be happening I panicked! Stoicism is not my forte. I wish I were more like you! My poor husband is dealing with a lot of emotion.

        Will you post the video or some pictures of your homemade ones? I’m intrigued!

      2. Oh man, my husband has dealt with a lot of emotions as well. Just remember, they do get the better end of the deal lol.

        I’ll email you the SUPER easy tutorial I found and the picture of my husband wearin the one we made.

        I’m so excited for you! I know it’s terrifying, but man oh man, your little girlie is going to be gorgeous!

  3. I was pretty much going to say the same thing about the mucus plug. Like a giant snot. Undeniable when it happens. Oh the things you are about to learn that no one tells you ;). All good of course. :).

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